Pho you.

Today was relatively the same as any other day at work. I arrived at work 2 minutes early. Arin is sitting at the desk watching a movie, and i say hello. We don't speak much to each other because he watches movies, and I just mind my own business, or play a movie/video game. Anyways, I went straight to ACS because I figured Ben was working at LA today. Turns out, he's working in SNA on thursdays so that was alright. Overall boring day, we drove to Garden Grove to get some Pho, which was delish. It was rudely interrupted by the noise of my phone as soon as the pho was set on our table. I look at the caller I.D. and look who it is. Nick.

He asks us where we're at, and I tell him again (I mentioned in IRC that Ben and I were going out to lunch) "We're eating."

So he wastes no time in saying "Oh, well I brought down a switch."

"What do you mean, you brought down a switch? Took one to ACS?"

"No, I mean I accidentally took it down, can you guys get to back to ACS?"

"Umm.. yeah.. uh.. k.."

"Thanks man, see you."

So I put down my phone and begin inhaling the pho. Ben looks at me and asks who called. I told him it was Nick, and he asks "What did he want?" I reply, "He took a switch down, we need to eat fast and get back to ACS, do they have togo bowls or something?" He looks at me with a blank stare and says "No, they don't." And also starts to go at the Pho.

Now, I've only eaten Pho once before this. It was with Michelle. I really didn't think anything of it. It didn't taste that good, just kind of plain. But this pho, boy... It stomped on the first pho I had. I really really really want some more of that. I hated eating it so fast, not being able to savor the flavor. But maybe next time.

So we are on our way to ACS, in my car in which i intrust Ben in driving. He almost hits two cars on the way there, and cuts off at least 10 others. We get to ACS and have to console into the switch. Something I've only done once. We get to the switch and try consoling in with Ben's computer. No good, we sit there for about 20 minutes trying to figure this out. Meanwhile, Nick, being the cool guy he is is sitting 5 minutes away at the office. I only realized he was at the office when we got back to ACS. He should have fucking manned up to his mistake and drove 5 minutes to ACS and fixed it himself. I honestly don't fucking get it. He makes us leave our food because he couldn't drive 10~ miles or less to fix the switch HE FUCKED UP. Some fucking "manager" you are. So it turns out Ben needs the drivers and Joe gives the drivers to him to download. We get the drivers and finally console into the switch. Finally, nick is on his way to ACS to see if he can fix it. Meanwhile, Ben and I try to fix it, but no avail, we can't login. Nick gets there and does everything we tried. He then moves to his last resort. He reaches over and reboots the switch. It's fixed! Ta-da! We go back to our desks and Ben and I want to get more food since we didn't really get a lunch. Nick says okay, and I ask Nick and Jerry if they want anything from Guppy's. None of them had money but still ask for food. They say they'll pay us back, heh let's hope so. On our way out we run into Sreang who also wants something from Guppy's but doesn't have money. We get to Guppy's and order. There's a good amount of people there still, and it's about 10:30. Mostly younger kids, teenagers, high schoolers, college students, etc. 30 minutes later we get our food. Drive back, eat and leave work.

I get home and remember I have to go over to the PBM to meet Greg to pick up the money for the drinks tomorrow. We decide on how to set up the beer pong table, and what drinks, to make sure we have enough money. That seems about it. Toodles.

Second

The second week of coming back to school and I'm relieved. This weekend should be fun. It's some kids birthday and we're going to have a small kick back at an open house across the street from Greg's house. I looked for that attractive girl in my Econ class today, came in a bit late. Found seating. Scanned the room. And did not see her. Maybe she skipped, I surely hope she hasn't dropped. I left my debit card in the ATM machine and the bank chopped it up and tossed it. I will receive a new one in 3-5 business days and currently have 3 dollars which has to last me til I get my debit. I can't stop listening to Owl City. I returned my amp back to those towel head scumbags. It got fucked up from a badly installed speaker in my car, I guess i'll have to use earbuds and iPod until then. Thinking about buying a new car. Not sure if I should go with it, hopefully I keep this job for a while. Trying to figure out what I want to do with my life and so unsure of what I should do. I have absolutely no direction in life. I need to get a life. It's extremely hot. I'm a little tired. Toodles.

Again.

Ah, day 2 of starting again.

So, it's 4:00am on the dot.

I just finished my homework assignment for Anthropology.

I'm not off to a good start so far.

Staying up late, having to wake up in a few hours.

Ugh.

I got to work on time today and browsed through my assortment of emails.

I found out that two of my managers are no longer employed.

Richard, a newer manager was layed off for not making enough sales.

Duc, a guy who's been with the company for a LONG time quit.

I assume the reason for his leaving the company was him not being able to put up with the owner's shit.

I never really realized how much shit they gave him.

Maybe it's because I fail to be important enough for them to talk to me.

Oh well, I hope i don't lose my job.

The mega lotto is at 250,000,000.

I'm going to attempt to play and win, ahaha good luck fag.

I didn't really do much today.

I think I have a crush on a girl who lives far far away.

;

Cute

Nice

Stylish

Average Height

Wears Glasses

Listens to good music

Has an adorable voice

Says funny things

Compliments me

Seems to like me

Lives forever away

I think a girl who is too young for me has fallen for me.

;

Oddly mature for her age

But yet, still immature

Types with good grammar

Rather tall for her age and ethnicity

Cute

Wears clothing i approve of

Glasses

Underbite? Or Overbite?

Manly voice

Funny

Peculiar

Fobby

Loves koreans

Too young

Lives 30 minutes away

I think a girl who is 21 and has yet to meet me likes me.

;

Cute

Might be chubby?

Nice

Blatantly said she likes me

Lives an hour away

Has amazingly cute cousins

Asked me to a party this saturday

I'm too pussy to go

I'm too shy to go

I'm too.. blah to go

I think she's attractive

I think a girl in my econ class is drop dead gorgeous.

;

Sat in front of me on the second day of class

Sat next to me on the third day of class

I can't stare at her

I think she's good looking

She smells nice

Should I ask her out?

How should i approach her

Hopefully she still sits next to me tomorrow

I think about her a lot

I think a girl who lives in Japan and is 21 is in love with me.

;

Insane?

Controlling

Vindictive

Not understanding

Stalker

Different time zone

Wants a lot

Does not give a lot

Never seen a good picture of her

Only seen one small pic of her

Talked with her on yahoo once

Unsure of what she wants

Unsure of what i want from her

Scared of what is going to happen

I received my new shoes.

PUMA FIRST ROUND SKETCH BLACK GOLD.

My sister made fun of them.

My dad said they look goddy [cheapy?]

I reinstalled WoW and reactivated my account.

I'm unsure of what the future holds but i'm not excited for it.

Lets start again.

Alright. So I have decided to start this shindig again. Well today I met Jenny for the first time today. Needless to say, I was surprised. This girl, i met her online on omgpop.com. She looked pretty cute in her pictures, and we started talking a little bit. I found out she was 12 ._. .. Definitely stepped back a little. I saw a few more pictures of her and still felt she was kind of cute. Talked to her a bit more and she was quite intelligent. A lot smarter than most girls her age. Anyways, she wanted these shitty skullcandy headphones i bought and didn't want, for her birthday. I met up with her today after school and gave them to her. It was kind of depressing because her little brother the awesome third wheel was there. So then it just.. got awkward kind of. It wasn't that great of a first meeting because of that. But oh well. She's tall, a little too tall. Cute though.

Moving on, I've also been at school for a few weeks now and there's this ridiculously cute girl in my econ class. The second day of class she sat in front of me. And today, she sat to the right of me. I don't know what is wrong with me, but i can't even look at her. She's gorgeous though.. I've decided to try something at least. We'll see next class.

February!!

So it's Feb, and i've just been really fucking busy. Life is moving faster, duller, boring, blagh blah bla. Anywho.. lets see here, i left off on the 30th.. well i can't think back that far. Recently, i went to a club and well, all i can say is that it sucked. When i dance, you don't "dance" you grind the shit out of the girl and it feels amazing. When i danced with Michelle at prom, it was awesome, but at this club.. First of all, the ratio was fucked from the get go. There were a ton of dudes, and all of the girls were dancing with eachother. I got in ONE dance, with ONE girl, and it was horrific. She danced so sporatically and didn't know how to dance or please a man at all, or it could just be me. But i asked my other 3 friends that went with me, and they all agreed that all of the other girls they danced with sucked as well. Anywho.. moving on.. My clutch blew out, eh i don't feel like talking anymore, i've told this story so much.. maybe later.. i'm getting a little tired right now, it's 3 in the morning, and i've been losing sleep. later on party people.

Sleep.

So I have problems sleeping, right now all i can do is think, think, think... I really don't know what is wrong with me. I try to sleep, but i can't. I lie in bed thinking of everything, life, Anna, work, school, money, and tomorrow - today rather.

Life for me right now sucks. I do the same exact routine every week, and there's nothing new, nothing out of the ordinary, nothing spontaneous, fun, exciting, absolutely nothing. Sunday i work, monday i go to school, then i go to work directly after, tuesday i go to school all day from 1-9, wednesday i go to school, then i go directly to work, thursday i go to school and have a 3 hour gap inbetween classes in which i catch up on homework due to the lack of time to do it any other time during the week. Friday, oh how i love but hate fridays, fridays are the only day i have off, but it's not like i do anything with my fridays. I pretty much wake up super late, sit around all day and sulk. Saturday, i work. Rinse and repeat this process. My life revolves around me working and going to school. I go to school because i have to, i really don't have a choice, if i don't then i lose my health benefits and my insurance. And since i'm so impatient with everything i do, i bought a car, i have to work, it is a must. If i do not work then i will not be able to pay for my car, and i will step into deep shit. All while my brother gets two free cars from my father, doesn't pay for really anything, and moved back in here and all he does is sit on his ass. While me on the other hand work 30+ hours a week, school fulltime, and still get harassed by my insane mother. My brother doesn't work that much, and only has two fucking classes, he somehow begs my dad for money and my dad gives him the money. Hard mother fucking life for him eh? I came to a realization that my life from here on out will suck immensely. I see no possibilities of it getting "better." I understand now, i understand that this is life, work, school, eat, sleep, and shit. All life is, is starting at a young age you go to school, then after school, you do more school, then after that set school, you do more school and then pick up a job to go along with school. Then you keep that job, and do more school, only to find a new job in which you have been schooling for your whole life. Now you're 25-30 and you've finally finished school for what you've always wanted to do, doctor. Congrats, you have now wasted 25-30 years of your life to become a doctor, to work some more! You lose your whole entire youth to schooling and working, only to work more? So you can provide for the next generation? So you can live at ease when you're 80? What the fuck is up with that. First of all, the generation before us sucked ass because they chose Bush. On top of that they put our economy in the biggest shit hole it's ever been in. Why the fuck do i want to live at ease when i'm 80, there's no point in living when you're 80. Hooray, you can ride around in a fucking wheel chair half dead playing checkers at an old home with a bunch of smelly fuckers. I don't see the point in life at all, it makes no sense to waste my fucking youth only to waste more of my time to live in peace.

Anna, now fuck her. I have no idea what is going on with me, and her. She is a complete and utter.. retard. She said i didn't try hard enough to see her, and that i should embrace life, yadda yadda yadda. She says she's picky, not spoiled. She says that i'm pushing her away. She says that i changed. Well wake the fuck up, guess why i changed? Because you're not picky, you're a spoiled picky brat. I tried to see you and you took that for granted too, like i didn't try hard enough, you spoiled picky brat. I'm pushing you away? Fuck yes i am, i want nothing to do with you anymore, i used to care, i used to want to know how you felt so i could help you. Now, you want to fuck with me? Well guess what, i don't give a fuck anymore, go cry to your ugly ass puppy dog cunt fuck, or your lesbian friend. Lie to me and tell me you're not into talking on the phone, while a few hours before that you are talking on the phone in a 3 way conversation trying to get trung on the phone too? Why not call me? Yeah fuck you. Complain that your life is so miserable because your mom and dad divorced and your dad is hard on you? Cry me a fucking river already, you spoiled picky brat. I'm done in trying to make it work, because in the end it won't, you don't want to put in the effort and i don't want to do all the work. Relationships aren't just one sided. I'm not going to waste my time on some young retard who can't even appreciate my support, love, and gifts. The hell with her, i deserve a mother fucking thank you and i don't get it. She said that she was a goal, and somehow if i got her, then i'm getting away from reality, my shitty life. And it could be true, i could be tring to get away from life, or i could be trying to get her as a goal or achievement in life. But i highly fucking doubt that. Before i actually realized anything, i truely did like her, a lot. But now it all clicked together, and i found out how much life really does suck, and how much she sucks too.

Well, i still can't sleep, and it's 5:00am, i need to get up at 8:00 so i can install my intake on my car. I'm pretty fucking stoked, but i want an exhaust too >.< i need to check my bank account. Good fucking night, i can't stand life anymore, i need a mother fucking girl i can take to the movies and talk to. Good fucking luck.

I can't change.

So i talked to Anna two nights ago and.. well it went somewhere, a little further than it has gone before. She got more.. in depth with talking about her and i as a couple. She's got problems expressing her emotions or love for me over the computer which is understandable. We've never met so we could act totally different around each other in person. But for me, there's something about her that always drags me back to her. Maybe it's because she gives me the attention i've never gotten from a girl before, or maybe it's because i actually do sincerely like her. I do worry about her too, last night her dad came into the room while she was doing homework and she left, then came back and said she was going to her moms and that was kinda it. So i'm guessing her dad yelled at her, or worse.. hopefully she's okay, i asked her around 2 or so if she was fine to make sure and she said she was safe. I lost some sleep thinking about if she was okay or not because she could say she's safe when she really isn't. I just know that this probably won't go anywhere merely because she can not do long distance relationships at all. She has a big problem accepting the fact she likes someone that lives 6 hours away that she's never met. In her words she feels as if "I'm in love with a computer" because that's the only way we communicate. It's depressing to know she's going through such a hard time and i can't be there next to her to comfort her and let her know how much i like her. I guess all it will ever be is just a friendship and nothing more, i should try finding a new girl to crush over.. Oh and i locked myself out of my work's office and i used a credit card not knowing if it would actually work, and it did. I picked a fucking lock with a credit card, it felt so badass. I'm one step closer to becomming a ninja theif stalker. Anywho, i saw this movie the other day, and i forgot it's name, but it was a documentry about Japanese Male Hosts, which is pretty much a strip club without the stripping. Women go there to get healed emotionally rather than physically. There's a ton of places to get sex or to get physical pleasure, but at this place the hosts rely on their way with words in seducing the girls into loving them. They drink a shit ton of champange, enough to make sure they don't live very long, they make tons of fucking cash, and their customers are actually relatively attractive women. The thing they pointed out was that the customers that come in are usually prostitutes that already get the sexual satisfaction because of their work, but they don't get the emotional healing from having a boyfriend. That's where the host comes in. I saw this and i immediately thought of george and i working as a host like that in japan. It sounds effing amazing. Anyways, i started this before school.. i need to get ready, later on party people.